去年十二月的时候，“道跌700点” 还被我用来形容一些极不可能发生的事情。

短短几月间，我感觉地球都逆转了。

只是世界上，总有一些比道跌700点更不可能发生的事情，所以才会有些像我沉沦的人。

如果我没记错的话，去年今日今时，我正在姚谦家喝酒。

第二天就是LSAT的考试，我没有参加。当天下午，我坐在Uris computer lab的某扇窗子的下边，写了一篇十分伤感的博文，写我对香港纸醉金迷的思念，以及为了纸醉金迷的生活放弃多年梦想的感伤。若是一年前我参加了那场考试，今天的我过的也许是一段截然不同的生活吧。

曾经有过好多遗憾，是不是时间都能将它们补上？

在facebook上收到HKSA Karaoke Night的邀请，突然发现自己就这么浑浑噩噩地过了一年。一年前，就在HKSA Karaoke Night上，我带着很傻很天真的王丹跟一群很强很有钱的香港人在牌桌上砸银子，我pocket 8's all in输给了别人的AK off suite... 我在Cornell的生活曾经是那么的宁静和单纯。

今年今日，在第五大道上望着高楼遮蔽下狭窄的天空，我突然很思念一年前那个很傻很天真却真诚得让我觉得很温暖的她。

只可惜，她和刘翔一样，都只是一段比我短暂的生命更加短暂的美好。

这以后，就算再受伤也不闪泪光！

There's too much inspiration in life. I am busy getting inspired...

Sleepless... Woke up and saw 2 firms gone...

Seven years ago, Sep 11 2001, the US was stunned by the 911 terrorist attack.

Half a year ago, Mar 14 2008, the US market was hit by Bear Sterns' "significantly deteriorated cash position in the last 24 hours." This day was known as “Bear Friday."

Last Thursday, when people on our desk was having an after-market chat, Mike Jenkins joked: "Do you guys know what day it will be tomorrow? " Everyone shook his/her head. Jenkins went: "It's Lehman Friday!"

Everybody laughed, thinking this joke was funny.

Ironically, today, Sep 14 2008, is exactly half a year after Bear Stearns' Friday...

Merrill is the smart one...

Now I have to make a decision, a very big one. I have to choose one of the following 2 options, by midnight.

Choice A:
- Costs 200 dollars up front, a couple thousand in the next few month, and possibly a hundred thousand in the next few years.
- Reduce my heart-breaking pain for the next few month, and hopefully the next year.
- Risk of other types of pains (not as bad as my current pain) in the future

Choice B:
- No up-front fee, no hidden cost at all
- Will generate a positive cash flow in the next few years, on the order of hundred thousands annually
- My current pain continues

Which one shall I choose?

- Choice A will become unavailable by midnight tonight. So I have to make this decision right now!

Help me!

私のくるしみ、だれが理解？
世の中、私はたれが信じられる？

やはり誰もない。。。
お願いします、お願いします。。。

突然又开始向往香港了。要是能回到那里多好，还能见到让我日夜牵挂的她们。

想念山顶上空缭绕的浓雾，想念曾在凉风细雨中陪我登山远眺的梅梅
想念维港两岸绚丽的灯火，想念曾在半山深处陪我览尽烟花璀璨的美达

一个个地名是那么的亲切，一幕幕风景是那么的熟悉
忽然觉得香港亲切地像一个家，而我，想回家了。

今どこにいるの？私の声を聞けるの？やはり聞きたくないでしょね。

私は悲しいよ、三ヶ月前から、どんなことをするともうれしくない。君はそばにいないとうれしくならない。しかし、どうして？

神様お願い。夢の中に君の笑顔を見ることは、この私の最大な希望だ。